It’s a familiar routine after a wedding. It’s late & we’re shuffling through uploading cards, writing down our lessons learned, and I know this all too well. Suddenly though, it hit me – tomorrow is mother’s day.
It didn’t hit me like you’re imagining, yes, I have my wife and mom a gift – 3 if we’re being a stickler with the details. What hit me is the fact that tomorrow I am celebrating my bride, Amy, and her first mothers day. (Ok, yes, last year was “technically” her first but C-man was only a week or so old… It didn’t “technically” qualify). This simple fact is the essence behind my every day life now. The fact that Amy is a mother means that I am a father. Wow. It hit me a again & it’s heavy, but in a good way. God has been so good to us & blessed us with the ability & means to raise a lovely little boy. Ultimately though, this process has been handled by the one who spends 95% of her time with my little man, my wife. The reason for me writing this post.
Amy,
You embody what it means to be a mother, wife, lover, & friend. You’ve held me accountable to my mistakes & at the same time loved me through all of my faults – this is easily the toughest task of all and likely prepared you for a mini-me. You’ve helped me see the man that I want to be and help me strive towards achieving that everyday. For that, I cannot thank you enough and somehow, I will repay you. Being too selfless is not an option for you as C-man and myself are always first on your list – I don’t know how you do it. Throughout the last 5 years, our journey has been anything but easy yet you’ve stayed as strong as a rock. When i’ve broken down and lost my cool, you’ve reminded me the real meaning of life. You help me stop and see the beauty in the little things, whether you’ve known it or not. After all we’ve been through, we’re here & standing proud with the most precious gift that we could have ever asked for. The gift of life & the true meaning of love.
I’m not sure about you but for me, the last year has been a blur. When I look back at Colton’s pictures I wonder how he got to where he is today. Sure, I had a hand in it – mostly by my good genes & boyish good looks i’m sure :) , but more importantly & the real reason he’s already grown so much is because he’s had a mother by his side. He’s had a true mother, not just someone who inherited the title by default. He’s had a mother who puts him first in every single situation. I am so proud of the woman that you are but more importantly the mother that you’ve grown to be. I’ve said it many times before and i’ll say it again simply because I mean it with all I have; I know you could have done this without me, but there’s no way I could have made it through this first year without you. You help me be a better man, father, & person. Basically, you’re amazingly unbelievable & unreal. You’re my rock & little mans heart. Thank you for being you.
Below are a few of my favorite moments with our Angel that is here today because of you. Because you took care of your body & took care of him. no particular order as they all have elevated my level of happiness beyond what I thought was possible.
None of the above would have happened if it wasn’t for your love, tenderness, selflessness, patience, guidance, & tolerance (of me :) ) – I cannot thank you enough for everything you’ve done & taught me over the last 5 or so years but as I told you on our wedding day, I will do my best to serve & honor you in all I say and do!
Colton says he loves you too & soon you’ll have hand-painted turkeys, a garage turned into a pet-adoption center, hide & go-seek games when you’re running late, food fights at nice places, and pretty muddy feet prints all through the house & probably a few on the wall- Get ready.
Love,
C + C
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